Recently I got laid off because of “workforce reduction” or downsizing. Change excites me yet the ill effects are also felt, I’m a work in progress and I do my best to stay positive. Financially I have no worries, I eat good and I have love and family around. I tend to get lost in my thoughts now that I have so much free time so I work a little harder to shut off the redundant mind talk and remember I am here for a reason. After working in an office setting for a couple years you grow attatched to the people and the routine of 9-5 life. On the brighter side I am filled with excitement. Losing a hum drum job helps you remember what your real dream is and gives you time to execute it. As for myself, I love music, writing and helping people and I didn’t do one of those things 40 something hours of my week. I feel free. God is surely good, he’s in control and he knows where he’s taking me. I trust him Now that I am “between opportunities” I will have my 2nd knee surgery done. I had my meniscus repaired months ago…now, Acl reconstruction, within a year or two I will be doing yoga and dancing again. Yaaaay! Not to mention my S&F case is doing just dandy and the love of my life is sweeter than ever. I know I don’t have a job but I feel so blessed to have made it over that stepping stone in my life…NeXT!
The fake “Hello”. The ladder of power. The struggle at times to keep your sanity in a seemingly fake environment. I put little energy into this crazy place, I pretty much talk the talk, wear the costume and put in no more effort than minimally required. I have seen wonderful people pursecuted by the man or the woman in my case and i have blocked out my emotions to a certain degree for my own good. But yersterday I had to truly be strong as my good friend and manager was laid off. Aaron if you are reading, i love you man. He has been here for years which has become quite a rarity. He created, perfected and maintained our department and handled all managerial duties. There are two team leads that work under Aaron and they do little to help. As for me,i am but a mere pawn by choice, i have worked so hard. With a promotion to human resources in near sight they gave me a pat on the back and a “thanks”. Because of my knee injury and time-off requests i was bypassed. I have done sales and made a killing, have done customer service and stopped people from sueing our wonderful company and I have done Human Resources and gave exceptionally worthy people a chance to thrive at a so-called reputable company. I am back on the phones now and I love it. No one to answer to, not bustin extra ass for the same dollar. Im just here. I have seen friends come and go for little or no reason and I have lost patience believing in our mission statement. They let Aaron go because of “workforce downsizing” but some of us veteran reps know what really happened. Team lead Sujey did not like that she had someone over her. There has been an ongoing power struggle and everyone has been caught in the midst of a dramatic tug of war scenario. I knew when Aaron’s calls were being pulled for calibrations, when his random lateness was being documented and when witnesses were called to sign off on his “rude behaviour” that this would happen. I sat in my cubicle AIMing my life away on a slow
Monday and I see a couple HR workers come through with boxes collecting his things. Minutes earlier i was conversing with my friend and bossman and throughout the warm
smiles and laughter I was thinking “What will he do when they fire him, I hope he will be okay”. I continued the convo, slightly confused to why I had those
negative thoughts. Now he is gone with no replacement. Work is piled up on an empty desk. They know without a raise in pay no one is here to help. They randomly choose
a proffesional-looking rep as a new team lead. God bless her soul. God bless us all as I endure yet another beautiful day in corporate paradise.
* This is completely true but to CMOA I must tell you that all characters and events in this blog entry (even those based on real people) are entirely fictional *
Lmao this will not be a “deep” entry…I’m at work and I’m just chillin wondering why I can’t deny this song? When I first heard it I’m like oh no what tha world is thIs? i had to lower it just to be able to experience it cuz i was driving and didnt wanna thump it lol…well i found myself listening it at least once a day and now im str8 in my cubicle jammin so hard right now. im gettin money…oh! lmao
confused?
Im talkin about Souja boy’s new song…”Turn my swag on”
WHAT IS WRONG WIT Q????!
Lol wow buddy is lOsIn it…he is sexy as ever but he is trIppin…I feel him when he gets tired of not having creative control over the direction that the group is going but jeez, I mean first he wants to beat Will, he’s makin big boy cry and now hes beating someone else on tha next episode. Brian’s absolutely right. Things will never be the same. lmao entertainment at its best.
Confused?…q from making the band is really losing it.
This year is so seRious. I know you understand what I’m saying. I know u feeL me lol. I know I havnt been writing but I was just feeling so good and trying to take it all in. This New years eve I went to work and then I went to church and brought the new year in the right way. I don’t go to church very often and last time God took me to church on a holiday of some sort was on my 18th birthday. I went to work and directly to church just like this time. And on my 18th birthday it wasn’t planned, my coworker asked me to come and I said yes just like December 31st 2008. On my 18th birthday I could have partied the night away just like this New years eve. But I didn’t. When I turned 18 I was invited to a spanish church where I couldn’t understand a word but somehow I felt weak in the knees as I felt every word. This New years I was invited to a spanish church where I couldn’t understand a word but I ended up crying as God embraced me. As I stood in that church late on the night of my 18th birthday I knew things were going to be alright. Soon after, I graduated my trade school, got an excellent job in my field, had my own apartment, had a good man and was in school to pursue my career. All before the age of 19. Somewhere between 19 and 20 I lost it all. Between 20 and 21 had it and lost it again. A bit after my 21st birthday I found myself. I’m 21 now and a few days ago I went to church with my coworker and I stood there hugging complete stangers as we entered 2009. As we let go of all the pain and confusion of 2008. God touched me that night just like he did a few years back as a young woman taking 2 buses at 5 in the morning to school followed by one more long bus ride to work everyday. He blessed me for my patience, my strength and my faith. I feel my blessings approaching and its more apparant then ever. I’m performing more efficiently and effortlessly at my job. I feel the creativity flowing through my viens when I write or sing. I’m surrounded by beautiful people, its tax time and Obama is my president. This year will be great, Just you see.
Even in its most drastic form change is usually good. To my friend who got laid off today for no reason two days before Christmas, that just means God will open the next door for him. To my friend going through a divorce, knowing she deserves better, yet not wanting to be alone. It seems traumatic now, god will bless her for loving herself enough to walk away. To my friend who is used to the penthouse and lush landscapes forced to move back in with the parents, she needs time to reflect on what god may have been trying to show her while she was living it up. To my friend who can easily run the block to feed his family like he is all to familiar with doing but he chooses to watch his wife work a 9 to 5 knowing God sees him. To myself who sits with no car and living with friends, working everyday instead of taking the easy way out and moving to another state with a man who claims he would’ve helped me. Made sure I had a car, clothes, no rent, whatever. No one can win when they resist change. When they stress change. All my people who hate working the phones. Baby, people are NOT doing good right now, please be thankful you have what you have. It is a stepping stone so use it as that. I just ordered a book titled “how to be proactive in the meantime”. I can’t wait to read it. God knows that I know that I am meant to do something BIG while I’m here. I won’t cry in the meantime.I will know God is molding me. Christmas is almost here!!
I left my phone charger at the job. I am distraught. Lol I thought I would be okay until tomorrow morning but I don’t think that’s the case. If it was a regular phone then maybe I could move on. I’m a g1 junkie…Iv had the phone for a month now and u better believe that if u see me, my bAbI is not far. The funny thing is that earlier, I thought I left the phone in the restroom at work and I hung up on my customer and ran like a trackstar to the empty stall. I didn’t see it so I ran right back to my desk and it was at the bottom of my purse the entire time. Now I’m finally home. As I lie down to relax and do some more online shopping I see that my phone is almost dead. I reach into my purse and my charger is not there. NOoooooo! So I called my friend to take me back to work and I wrote this blog entry before my phone died, but the addiction is sIcK. Lol Why couldn’t I wait till morning?
I was awaken by the sound of lil wayne, my phone alerts me of an unopened e-mail…”bitch I’m the bomb, like tick. Tick.” But its 6 o’clock in the morning so who could it be? Long story short, a yawn and a stretch later I see my approval from Today.com to be a professional blogger. Get ready Tony…ok. GRrrrrreAt! I’m ready. I’m hype. I’m full of crazy, entertaining and uplifting entries. So wat can I say guys? Um…enjoy. Please keep in mind that my page would usually have much more ZeST but for the moment I am limited to blogging from my phone (very nice phone,= G1 bAbY! Lol) so I can’t add my flare yEt but just know that I want to…Love you guys and although I have most of my poetry on my other blog I will repost those for ya…Its a brand new day so enjoy it! Love u ALL!!!!!
Now that I am “between opportunities” I will have my 2nd knee surgery done. I had my meniscus repaired months ago…now, Acl reconstruction, within a year or two I will be doing yoga and dancing again. Yaaaay! Not to mention my S&F case is doing just dandy and the love of my life is sweeter than ever. I know I don’t have a job but I feel so blessed to have made it over that stepping stone in my life…NeXT!
