Got2speakonlyfe

I love him so it doesn’t seem impure
But How does God view it
I love to get crazy in bed
“Make you say things”
The urge is so strong
I want it all the time
Should that be considered Greed?
If I am greedy, I am behaving improperly
I am hindered in my walk
According to the great book
Mind you, I dont believe every sentence written
yet I believe in this certain verse particularly…

“Among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity,
or of Greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people (Eph. 5:3 NIV)”

…so Deep in my soul it reeks of truth
It proves to be a difficult task to determine If my lovemaking fits into this category
I feel so dirty
In a good way?
I thank God afterwards
for it is surely a blessing
To connect with him in such a spiritual way
I will not declare confusion
I will just say I am a work in progress with questions to be answered
God is molding me daily to meet his standards
I am not straddling the fence but on the playing field in the thick of the action
I feel guity but proud
Full of angst and glory
I kiss him with a smile
Feeling like God is present one moment
Like he is shaking his head the next
I will hand this over to the lord
and i refuse to burden my heart and my love with worry
I find comfort in the idea that I care so much
I have truly grown into the God-fearing woman I dreamed I would be.