Jan 08 2009
2009.
This year is so seRious. I know you understand what I’m saying. I know u feeL me lol. I know I havnt been writing but I was just feeling so good and trying to take it all in. This New years eve I went to work and then I went to church and brought the new year in the right way. I don’t go to church very often and last time God took me to church on a holiday of some sort was on my 18th birthday. I went to work and directly to church just like this time. And on my 18th birthday it wasn’t planned, my coworker asked me to come and I said yes just like December 31st 2008. On my 18th birthday I could have partied the night away just like this New years eve. But I didn’t. When I turned 18 I was invited to a spanish church where I couldn’t understand a word but somehow I felt weak in the knees as I felt every word. This New years I was invited to a spanish church where I couldn’t understand a word but I ended up crying as God embraced me. As I stood in that church late on the night of my 18th birthday I knew things were going to be alright. Soon after, I graduated my trade school, got an excellent job in my field, had my own apartment, had a good man and was in school to pursue my career. All before the age of 19. Somewhere between 19 and 20 I lost it all. Between 20 and 21 had it and lost it again. A bit after my 21st birthday I found myself. I’m 21 now and a few days ago I went to church with my coworker and I stood there hugging complete stangers as we entered 2009. As we let go of all the pain and confusion of 2008. God touched me that night just like he did a few years back as a young woman taking 2 buses at 5 in the morning to school followed by one more long bus ride to work everyday. He blessed me for my patience, my strength and my faith. I feel my blessings approaching and its more apparant then ever. I’m performing more efficiently and effortlessly at my job. I feel the creativity flowing through my viens when I write or sing. I’m surrounded by beautiful people, its tax time and Obama is my president. This year will be great, Just you see.
