Dec 15 2008
Are you running from your family?
I feel much better now. I spoke with my father last night for a half an hour or so. I was avoiding making the call because I didn’t call him on his birthday. I also avoided calling him on Thanksgiving for no apparent reason. I felt terrible and I didn’t know what to do. My heart was telling me to just call, he’s probably worried about me at this point. The little voice in the corridor of my mind was telling me not to call because I had been a bad daughter. The battlefield of the mind is a dangerous place. Last night I was browsing through dvds because I had extra money on my amazon.com account. I stumbled accross the 4 disc set of “Faulty Towers” which immediately brought back warm memories of my dad. I had to be 10 or 12 years old when he had me watch a few episodes of this hilArIous british comedy show. I had to buy it for him! The perfect christmas gift…but I didn’t have his address, hell I didn’t even have his phone number. So I proceeded to call my grandma (nan) and obtain the digits. I called, we had a wonderful conversation and I ordered the gift to reach him by christmas day. But WHY do we sometimes run from our loved ones???? The devil is a LIAR! Lol
we sometimes run from our loved ones because our loved can bring our worst and or best out all within a few words and sometimes out of fear of that, we hide or avoid our family because we might be going threw something completly differnt but are scared they might say something to push us over the edge in our minds. but also rem that they can sometimes unknowingly give us the answer we so badly need at that moment of struggle
we run from loved ones because they sometimes are a sorce of pain current or old. because of this we rather not go to them in times of confusion because we are worried they might say soemthing to push us over the edge unknowingly but sometimes they can actually tell us what we need to hear when they dont even know whats wrong.